I did something I didn't mean to do this weekend, I fell in love with another guy. No worries though, this new guy is furry, four months old and probably weighs five pounds. He's a little yorkie puppy! I have a little dog named Gwen. I adopted her last year from a shelter. I have no idea what type of dog she is, but she only weighs about fifteen pounds. She is full of energy, she also loves people and other dogs. I got her when I was having a tough time last year mentally. My dear friend suggested I get a dog so that I'll have a loyal little friend and someone to take care of. I picked Gwen at the shelter and not her brother because she was so lively and when I picked her up, she licked my face. It was love with that first kiss.

I never had a dog before, growing up cats where the family pet. So I have one dog and now I want another. I took at trip to a dog breeder this weekend just to look at the puppies but as soon as I held this little guy I wanted him. Unfortunately (or maybe it's fortunately), I began thinking with my mind and not my heart. Can I really take care of another pet? So I went home without the little guy and three days later, I'm still thinking about him. I asked Gwen if she wants a brother, she looked at me crocked her head and then continued to chew on her ball. I took that answer as a yes. So I'm still only the mother of one dog right now, maybe if its all meant to be ill be the mom of two. Which is funny because I have said that if I'm ever blessed with a child one day I would want only one, now I realize I can't even be the m to one dog without the desire to have another...

What's "good" about me?

     I'm tired today.  I felt defeated the whole day today.  I need encouragement and hugs.  So I turned to writing which has always been therapy for me.  I have always had low self esteem.  I hardly ever feel or speak highly of myself.  I was told that maybe I should try to write some of my good qualities down.  This is extremely hard for me.  I can come up with a lot of my flaws, but for the sake of this exercise, I'll spare everyone my bad traits and try to come up with a few of my good traits.

1.  I think I'm a good listener. I may not give the best advice, but if you need a listening ear and someone that won't spill your deep dark secrets into the rumor mill, I'm your girl.

2.  I try to be as helpful as possible, just ask I'll more than likely say yes.

Wow this is hard...I've been sitting here for a few minutes trying to comeuppance with some more qualities.

3.  Oh yes!  I'm compassionate, I try not to hurt others, and when I do (accidentally) ill try to make it better.

4.  You can depend on me, I try and keep my word.

5.  I'm extremely patient.

This is getting easier!

6.  I believe I'm some what intelligent.

7.  I'm honest.

8.  I'm going to end my list with I'm loving.

Writing this list has made me feel a little better about myself.  😊

Love

Wikipedia says "Love is an emotion of a strong affection and personal attachment. Love is also said to be a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection Love may describe compassionate and affectionate actions towards other humans, one's self or animals." The bible, at 1 corinthians 13:4-8 says love is "patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

There are many types of love, I love my family, I love my friends, but romantic love is something really special. There are countless love songs and movies based on it. Some people search their whole lives for it. Some people say they found it, but unfortunately the fall out of it quickly. There are self help books and web sites designed for one to find their "soul mates". When it is found love can be euphoric. Love can be the source of so much happiness. So why do others feel like they need to interfere with the love life of others based on trivial things?

Think about the story of Romeo and Juliette. They gave up their lives for love. Unfortunately, they couldn't be together because their family members hated each other. I understand families wanting to be involved in your relationships because they really want you to be happy and they don't want others to hurt you. If your partner has some sort of major personality flaw, or the like, I think it's only right for your family or friends to warn you before you get deep into the relationship. But if they hate your partner only because they are a different race, religion, social status etc., this is wrong on so many levels. Why deny love on trivial matters when it's so hard to find in the first place?