New Year

So, it's New Year's Eve already. Last year at this time I was going through a big mental change in my life, which led me to be depressed. I was miserable at the end of the year. Now I'm not so miserable, I got over the depression. Not to say that at times I never feel a little down, but I'm nothing like I was last year. I believe 2012 was a changing year for me. The year I finally decided to stop believing how others want me to believe. We are created with free will, and it took me 365 days to realize that I will not let anyone take this god given freedom away from me.

Now I'm nervous. I am ready to walk away from the religion. Even writing those words causes a knot in my stomach. I know many will be disappointed with me, or think that I have completely lost my mind. But this is something that I have to do, no more living the lie. No more doing what others think is right. But I'm still afraid. I'm afraid of making the wrong choice. But I guess that's life. We all must make a choices, some will be good, others will be bad. Hopefully I will be granted the wisdom to make somewhat good decisions.