Spiritually weak

“Life will get much better when you stop caring about what everyone thinks, and start to actually live for yourself.” - Robert Tew

I used to be a good  Jehovah's witness.  I followed most of the JW rules.  I attended weekly meetings, never celebrated a holiday and rarly  associated with people who weren't witnesses.  I also devoted much of my free time to their religious cause.  I spent eleven years as a full time preacher (pioneer), I volunteered 70 hours a month or 840 hours a year preaching to people.  I even had more "special" witness privileges:  I spent three summers picking blueberrys in the hot sun three days a week at a complex where they produce religious literature.  At the same complex there is an infarmary where older, infermed witnesses who have spent many years living at the complex stay.  I worked a weekend at least every three months in that infarmary for twelve hour shifts for about two years.  I read every word of new publications produced by the witnesses.  I really know how to be a "good witness".

But I just don't care to be a good witness anymore.  I know what they teach is not absolute truth.  Witnesses think their religion is the only one that truly teaches god's word.  When a member of the witnesses slows down in their activity, or does not patricipate fully in witness activity, they are often labeled as "spiritually weak". These individuals may need "encouragement" from "stronger" JW members.  I'm sure some witness see that I am "slowing down".  I'm sure that it is just a matter of time before I become someone's special project, and the will try to give me "spirtual assistance".  I really don't need any assistance, as I have deprogrammed myself.  I'm mentally free from the witness beliefs.  No assistance needed here!